I remember the date, time and location vividly - 28 October 2010, 1300hrs, NUS Sports Drive 1. I had committed a grave mistake that I should have avoided after all.
But as for now, I'm lost for words. :( This horrible memory shall be etched in my mind forever.
Friday, October 29, 2010
One of my bleakest days 28/10/10 (part 1)
Phew, it has been quite a while since I have written my last post. Well, I have been busy with some 'stuff'.
I prefer to forget this horrible day- 28/10/10, but decide to write it anyway so that I can read it while I'm emoing =.=. That day was a huge moment for me, as I had to give two successive school presentations in my university, something that I never accomplished before.
First off was a presentation that I had put my utmost effort in. CS1010E is a computing module and I was given the task of explaining one of the tutorial questions in powerpoint slides. I appeared to be very confident as I had rehearsed my lines rather thoroughly, but in fact, my hands were involuntary shaking with nervousness. Like I have said, I had never presented for a long time and it was heart above matter at that time, which got me so nervous. My reluctance to present started to show when I could not display the slides from my laptop onto the big screen. I started to panic a bit, but the tutor was kind to help out. After 5 mins, I started my presentation. My tutor had to stop me halfway as he thought that I was not clear and concise enough in my explanation. After presenting, I was slightly discouraged as I felt that I did not perform up to my expectations.
After which, I had to routinely rush off to the next tutorial venue. It was crucial as I had to give my second presentation. I was late but my presentation was around 5 minutes later. I was not sure how to answer the tutorial question. Ironically, the answers were given out via the ivle website prior to that day. Like a rebellious 10-year old schoolkid, I presented what I thought was the correct answer (which was totally different from the answer provided). I was already in a bad mood and wanted to end this chaos as soon as possible. Perhaps my mind wasn't thinking straight.
After the tutorials finished, I still needed to attend a lab practice. I drove my car around NUS so as to relieve my frustration, but to minimal effect. After that, at around 1pm, I entered a carpark to find a parking space. It was then when I realised that my nightmare became a reality.
I prefer to forget this horrible day- 28/10/10, but decide to write it anyway so that I can read it while I'm emoing =.=. That day was a huge moment for me, as I had to give two successive school presentations in my university, something that I never accomplished before.
First off was a presentation that I had put my utmost effort in. CS1010E is a computing module and I was given the task of explaining one of the tutorial questions in powerpoint slides. I appeared to be very confident as I had rehearsed my lines rather thoroughly, but in fact, my hands were involuntary shaking with nervousness. Like I have said, I had never presented for a long time and it was heart above matter at that time, which got me so nervous. My reluctance to present started to show when I could not display the slides from my laptop onto the big screen. I started to panic a bit, but the tutor was kind to help out. After 5 mins, I started my presentation. My tutor had to stop me halfway as he thought that I was not clear and concise enough in my explanation. After presenting, I was slightly discouraged as I felt that I did not perform up to my expectations.
After which, I had to routinely rush off to the next tutorial venue. It was crucial as I had to give my second presentation. I was late but my presentation was around 5 minutes later. I was not sure how to answer the tutorial question. Ironically, the answers were given out via the ivle website prior to that day. Like a rebellious 10-year old schoolkid, I presented what I thought was the correct answer (which was totally different from the answer provided). I was already in a bad mood and wanted to end this chaos as soon as possible. Perhaps my mind wasn't thinking straight.
After the tutorials finished, I still needed to attend a lab practice. I drove my car around NUS so as to relieve my frustration, but to minimal effect. After that, at around 1pm, I entered a carpark to find a parking space. It was then when I realised that my nightmare became a reality.
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